Highlights for the week
Another week where emails and phone calls were silent with job prospects. It has been exactly 3 months since my time and SI and as I've written before, I'm not handling it well. I should have been happily employed, celebrating ONE YEAR in my new role as a security consultant. Instead, I'm back in the gulag of my own ineptitude. I haven't been sleeping well. My workouts have been steady, but not seeing the progress. And I'm gaining weight .. thinking its a low-t thing. The lonliness of not having anyone reaching out, or the fear that I may never land another job is really weighing on me. The motivation to even get up and keep moving forward has been tough. Discipline is how I operate.
The phrase, YOU FALL TO THE LEVEL OF YOUR TRAINING keeps bouncing around in my mind. As I meditate, I'm beginning to see just how true it is to everything I do and who I am.
Accepted another QA test cycle on U-Test (yay!)
Struck out on yet another HackerOne Pen Test (boo!)
What We’re Grateful For
- I am absolutely grateful that I still have air in my lungs, food in the 'fridge, and money in the bank. God is not done with me.
- Grateful that I get to watch my son coming to his own with new opportunities.
- Grateful that my partner hasn't left. I've given her plenty of reasons.
- New workout - alternating days off. Days Off = active rest days, so no real laziness
What We Loved
- Not a lot to love this week.
What We Learned
- Learned to test localization on native android app for Red Cross
- Network Pen Test week 3 in the bag - bult a crappy network scanner
What We Longed For
- Longing for a proper job.
What We Loathed
- Nothing to really loathe except for the situation I am in of my own doing.
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