Highlights for the week
It has been another quiet uneventful week. Some jobs applied to. Some jobs rejected. The circle keeps turning. I don't quite feel the fire like I once did. I'm trying really really hard to reignite the passion, but I've never been more disillusioned, disheartened, and disappointed in myself. I working on healing and silencing the negative talk, but every-so-often I'm haunted by the failures and the mistakes. Every week that goes by is a week that I kick myself for doing all the dumb sh*** that brought me back to the dark place ... the place I fought so hard for the last two years to get out of.
On a personal level, I've been listening to a lot of Jim Rohn and his videos have helped me get into a better headspace. Some of the quotes include:
- Failure is part of the process. YOU'RE NOT A FAILURE - YOU ARE FORMING!!
- Falling short is learning.
- Keep showing up. Some days will feel like nothing is working. Keep going. Keep showing up for yourself. 1000 imperfect steps
Two main things I want to focus on for this trip: PUROPOSE and REBUILDING TRUST
- Purpose: is living in alignment with your values, your standard, not someone else's expectations.
- Rebuilding Trust: Rebuild trust by aligning your actions with your values.
- Character is built by your habits, repetition, and daily decisions.
Conclusion: Quit doing the dumb shit!! Stay disciplined. Discipline is the highest form of self-love. It rebuilds compassion. It rebuilds confidence and trust .. one small action at a time. One win every day. Stay consistent. Repeatedly.
Non-sequitor: I really need to get myself checked out. Feeling all the symptoms of low-t and possibly enlarged prostate.
What We’re Grateful For
- Grateeful that I get to wake up and enjoy another week.
- Looking forward to the upcoming cruise and much needed escape from the dark cloud.
- Grateful that I have the energy and
What We Loved
- Love that vacation is next week. Going to rest, relax, reset, and reprioritize. Another cruise w/o a job is icky, but these are not fun times!!
What We Learned
- Started a new pen test project given its football season, it only made sense to test NFL.com
- Learned about Portswigger's SQL Lab - Visible error-based SQL injection to finish WAHH Chapter 9. Without PRO version, this was a daunting suite of labs.
- Completed week 4 of the Network Pen Testing videos. I'll probably double up on the lessons when I come back from break.
- WAHH - Chapter 11, just started and learned about some scenarios involving exploiting flaws in business logic
What We Longed For
- As always, longing for a paychcek
What We Loathed
- The fact AI is becoming the excuse for laying off so many people.
- Hating the job hunting process. Getting rejected from a job only to see it reposted is enfuriating
- Registered for DOL Cybersecurity training only to find out it was not as advertised
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